Sitting around my mind traveling in every which direction. Not knowing the answers. No clarification, No understanding, No answers, No thought. Just trying to grasp a hold of what is happening. I cant see it, I cant explain it, I cannot understand it. But, I can feel it I can feel it. Oh I can feel it and the best part about it is it feels good. I thought I didnt want it but, I was wrong. Because now that I have it I wonder to myself why I wouldnt want it. It feels good actually, it feels great. I have been missing out on so much deep behind walls, and games. For the first time in a long time I am forced to feel again, to trust again, and to love again. But, it has not shown me the things that I fear so much. All it has shown back is love. I realized today that it is that love that makes me rip those walls down. Its that look in there eyes. Its that smile that could light up the darkest room. Its there presence that makes my stomach hurl itself around as if a tornado were inside of me. Cant you see what you have been doing to me. I only hope you can see what you mean to me.