As I listen to the conversation its like music to my ears.
"That was a hell of a move tonight."
Soon as it left my mouth I knew it.
"I'm talking about afterwards."
I know I know I was sorry.
"You've got to be careful because if not that temper of yours is all that you will have left."
I don't think people are going to forgive me for some of the mistakes I have made along the way.
"The important thing is for you yourself to get past them all. You have to live better its not just going to go away."
"So...
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What do you think about when you wake up?
What is your first thought?
Unfiltered untainted and true.
The very first thing.
Think about what it is and smile remember it and keep it in your mind.
Ask yourself what is anyone you knows first thought.
I bet you can't answer so lets not pretend like anyone really knows anyone.
Because the only person who truely knows you is you.
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Shahnaz
Shes the first thing I think about everyday
How is she?
Does she miss me like I...
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I did it to myself
Now I'm all by myself
Acting like you hate me
You played me too
Now there's nobody left
To hear me
All you're hearing is your own
Echo
It started off great
But who was to know
That love that is lost
Cannot be let go
You say it's my fault
Ok then i'll go
It's better to know
Now there's nobody to argue with
Cause i'm not home
Disgusted with trust
I trust no one no more
Just went with the flow
Found myself on the floor
When you went away
All my pain went astray
Like it's a new day
Now i have no one ...
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As my clock ticks on
As the time passes me by
As my life spins wildly out of control
As everything begins to unwind and break
As time goes by distance grows
As time goes by only I know
As my life starts to flash infront of me
As I have lived my last 25 years
As it feels now only like a moment
As now the moment I just felt writing this is gone
As I did exist in that moment
As I still exist in that moment as well as the next
As well as the future and the past
As I live my life I wonder what the purpose may ...

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John Hiatt - Have A little Faith In Me Lyrics


When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me
And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me

And when your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darling, from a whisper start
And have a little faith in me
And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you, you...
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The old woman starts to knit. First, she takes her materials and prepares them. As she begins to feed the thread through just as the old blanket was used to being put together and pieced in the right way, it happened. This time it wasn’t looked at as the blanket anymore because this blanket needed to be re-stitched due to wear and tear. Yes, this blanket had some holes and rips in it. But, instead when the thread began to be feed through this time it wasn’t feed through with as much care ...

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I'm still hurtin' from the last time
You walked on this heart of mine
I can't find much to believe in
You let me down so many times
Heaven knows how I love you
But I'm tired of holding on
You better kiss me
'Cause your gonna miss me when I'm gone

Not much chance we're gonna make it
If I'm the only one who's trying
You know I'm running out of reasons
And we're running out of time
Someday, girl, you're gonna wake up
And wonder what went wrong
You better kiss me
'Cause your gonna miss me when I'm gone

You're go...
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You think about her much?
Everyday everyday.
One of these days your going to wake up and your going to realize how much I love you and when you do I will still be waiting for you.
Because the answer is still everyday.
Yes the answer to the question you asked me I can give it to you because you deserve it.
But, the real answer is because I want it and I want you.
Miss you, want you, love you, yearn for you, ache for you, think of you, daydream of you, you, you, you.


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Washing away the color fades off. The silence lingers, the questions unanswered. It starts to wash away my heart. The rag that is used is brittle and scratches away pieces of me. As it’s rung out the blood of my heart spills on the floor. I ask myself each time can my heart take anymore, each time that it happens it crashes to the floor. The blood and the pieces laying there while I still stand. I start to clean it up all this blood now in my hands. I have begun to wonder to myself how ma...

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Reaching for something that's just not there trying to breathe without
any air listening as it all rings through my ears reminds me of times
through my previous 25 years traces of what I once was now blowin away
like foot prints on the desert floor wipping away all traces of the
man who I once knew and who the same man who thought he knew you left
here torn and broken when all that was needed were words that were
never spoken as it all dwindles down the only thing I hear now is my
heart fall ...
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Quiet In My Town Lyrics

Today I heard that someone left this earth
That someone disappeared left no mark here
Today I heard that someone just got up and left himself
Lying on the ground

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town

Today two boys disappeared without noise
and I wish that I was them flying somewhere overhead
And tonight in silence, two lovers hate and find
One is bored
One is angry
but neither one of them is right, oh

Today is
Today is ...

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Sitting around my mind traveling in every which direction. Not knowing the answers. No clarification, No understanding, No answers, No thought. Just trying to grasp a hold of what is happening. I cant see it, I cant explain it, I cannot understand it. But, I can feel it I can feel it. Oh I can feel it and the best part about it is it feels good. I thought I didnt want it but, I was wrong. Because now that I have it I wonder to myself why I wouldnt want it. It feels good actually, it feels gre...
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Only hours in the countdown before I have to drive away, I sat there and wished I could stay. I lie on the bed the place I wanted to be. The clock said son it’s time to go. She has left me with this feeling to carry on my way. I close my eyes just for a moment because otherwise I could not walk away. I finally muscle up the courage to walk down the stairs. But, she leaves these things inside and it always reminds me why I want to stay.
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He walked into the house that day. Neither of them could look at each other the same way. They each saw the pain they had caused throughout the days. He stood there and said nothing. And she stood in just the same way. She handed him a letter. Said I don’t think things are going to get better. He saw it in her eyes. But, he still said nothing. He took that note and walked away. Drove down the road and realized what to say. He cried for a while realized this is what it was going to be. He sa...

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The things we fear do not exist. At one time the things you are scared of never existed in your world. Now you can pick out all of your fear. You know what you fear the most. What it is you cannot do. But is fear not just a creation made by you and created by the mind. So why not face your fears and let them pass through you. You will find that there is no fear at all you are only facing yourself. However for some people is that not the biggest fear of all? Face the things that scare you the ...

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LOSS

There comes a time in life when we lose things. What it that we lost is and how much it meant to us is the amount of time it takes to get over these things. Did you lose your wallet and ID and all your money and credit cards…? Well now you are mad and aggravated and then you try to reason with yourself and recover the thing you lost you look everywhere for it. You’re searching frantically now because you know that there were important things in it. But, the things in it were and are...

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Fortunate people often have very favorable beginnings and very tragic endings. What matters isn't being applauded when you arrive - for that is common - but being missed when you leave.
Baltasar Gracian

 

Yes everyone loves you while you are there but who loves you while you are gone. Those are the people who truly care. Those are the most significant people in your life. When you first arrive everyone is excited to see you and happy. But, what you have to ask yourself is when the time come...

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Say what you want to say when you want to say it don’t wait because you never know when time will run out. Don’t hold back on life or life will hold back on you. Say what you want to say because it is you and it is exactly what you want. To hold back is to go through life without living. Because you are not living the way that you want to. If you hold back you will find things different then you want them to be. But, if you leap and take the jump then your present can be anything that you...

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I don’t want to push you but I do

It  just scares me just a little bit

I don’t want to do anything to drag you away

Sometimes I cant help it though

Just like I couldn’t help listening to your warning

I couldn’t help wanting to be with you and talk to you

Just like I couldn’t help falling in love with you

It does scare me but that’s what it is

It just is and that’s all that there is too it.

Its you                     its you                     its you ...

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The confusion inside begins to grow.

Inside the eyes you see a silent glow.

Have I seen this thing before?

Or this time could it be something more.

Cold as winter on the ground.

This new thing spins my heart around.

Things from the past begin to fade away.

Now they only seem a distant day.

What’s new and unknown is now what I fear.

Because this thing now has become very near.

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To think your intelligent is to be narrow minded. To believe you are right is what makes you so wrong. To always talk and never listen is to live in a box. Not a box but only your box. When closing self off you close off wisdom. But, to think you are wise you have already constructed the box. To become simplistic, open minded, to know when to listen and know when to speak. These are the things that lead you down the path to a place one cannot even begin to imagine. But only the free spirit an...

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When surrounded by stupidity does one become ignorant?

When surrounded by intellect does one become intelligent?

When surrounded by arrogance does one than become arrogant?

When surrounded by knowledge does one become knowledgeable?

When surrounded by humor does one become funny?

When surrounded by humility does one become humble?

When surrounded by love does one become happy?

When surrounded by death does one become depressed?

And when given a choice does one choose the correct one?

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I am an optimistic person where others find, and see the bad in a situation. They see the Bad, the hurt, the pain, the sadness. I take these things from it knowledge, understanding, wisdom, and life lessons. It was dusk we were driving down the road as we had done day in and day out. I found myself in thought. Just off somewhere on a different plane as we drove down the same roads we had patrolled for months. But, little did I know that today was going to be different. Not even necessarily di...
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Look around you is anything absolute anymore. Are people, the times we live in now, society, or friends? This is sometimes a sad question to ponder. But it is a legitimate one none the less. Is truth absolute? Most people live there lives covered with and behind lies. So is absolute honesty with anyone real? Sometimes I question it because sometimes in life it seems so surreal and distant or even nonexistant at times.
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There is a difference between saying and doing. There is a difference between practice and performance. And, yes my friends there is a difference between love and lust. The unfortunate thing is that by the time that you might realize this. It just might be a little bit to late.
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People often ask me how old are you. This question followed by the answer I give is almost always immediately followed up by there statement well you don't look that old. I think to myself age is a number a limit, and to most a catagorey which leads to a classification. I am this old now so this is the way I should portray myself or be living my life. I am this old so this is the way that I want others to see me. What I say is don't limit yourself  at anything that you do no matter what it is...
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Love is comparable to an ocean. When the waves are calm and everything is going right you can swim out as deep and as far as you would like. But, add some waves to this calm perhaps even a storm and now you will have to put forth more effort to even stay in the place you were with no waves let alone swim deeper. But, what if everything goes wrong and you then want back into that shoreline that safety. Well sometimes you can make it back easy. But, sometimes you're pulled back out by the rip t...
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You never know what life is going to bring you. Will it be happiness or maybe the opposite. Will it bring you delight or maybe the opposite. But, I do know this. The day that you are bored with life is the day you are not living at all.
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When life goes off of our natural planned course that we have for ourselves from time to time. When this happens should we accept it for what it is worth? Should we embrace it? Or should we run from this new path to get back to the path that we think are life belongs on? What if this new path you were headed down was destiny and you fought it would'nt you regret that more than a change in plans?
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Have you ever noticed when something bad happens to a decent person. That you will find that person off sulking saying to themselves and others why do bad things happen to good people. Well to that I say why dont you get up and go out an start doing things for others. Why dont you see how that makes you feel rather than sit around and feel sorry for yourself.
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It's not always the things you say to a person that will make you be understood by that person. It's the confusion you create by the things that you don't say which always seem to carry more weight into that situation.
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Don't worry about the future for it is still unseen untold and unwritten. Don't live in the past for you have already lived it once and it has already been seen and written. That story has already been told. Instead live in the present and make it as beautiful as you can. Because the present can be a work of art and a gateway to your future.
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When you're confused don't frat. Because right after confusion comes clarity. Which is then the window to enlightenment
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Today I sat down to think about my life. What a trip it has been so far. You think to yourself the person that I am now is this person I want to be. Or, are there things I can change within myself that will make me become a better person. Or perhaps have there been things that I have changed before which up and to this point have made me become a better person. When thinking all of this it becomes very simplified as to the answer to all of these questions that you have for yourself and what t...
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Sometimes we think back. To a day far in the past or to you maybe it seems like yesterday. When we look back we see many different things. You see the person you were. You can see the life you had lived up and to that point. We all look back from  time to time. When you look back what do you find? Do you find happiness? Or perhaps your still in search of that. Do you find a quite calm comfort with the past. Or is it like a hurricane that has destroyed everything. Or, do you possibly find regr...
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Some of us don’t know what we want in life, while some of us do. But, there is one thing in common with everyone we all have dreams. As a kid what was your dream? Is your life now completely different then what you dreamed it to be when you were young? Do you regret that it is? Because I have a motto and it is to live with no regrets. Live life to the fullest because you only live life once and those are, or were your dreams dont let that escape you. Don't lose that excitement, that is you ...
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